Malaise for the Montauk Monster

"Do you have any idea what a struggle it is to get out of bed every morning? It literally saps all my energy. When I get to work, I spend a good two hours just staring at a gray wall, and no one even notices. Where did my passions go? I used to draw, you know. Really well, too. I won awards for my sketches of people on the subway. Now, I'm stuck in this crude cycle of mindless working, laborious drinking, and intermittent sleep. I'm starting to fear I'll never break out of it, that I'm going to die alone and unfulfilled and forgotten."